Oscilating Fan

My thoughts lie gently on my mind which is numbed by the golden breeze of the sunshine that blows through the humm of the plastic blades of my fan. I stare deep trying to figure it out, why do I stare through the eyes of someone that is not me. I feel so unlike anyone, no one. I stare with the eyes of a creature that is unhuman, an alien. I'm not an alien, I look like, well how I've always look. Allthough, I can't see myself how I used to.
KNOCK, KNOCK, KNOCK.... Hmmmm, I wonder who it is? Who knows I'm here in this room. I don't remember telling anyone I was here. I haven't talked to anyone as long as i can remember. What the fuck? I don't want to talk to anyone right now.... KNOCK, KNOCK... BANG. Are they trying to break down the door. BANG... Yes they're breaking down the door. I know i should get up. I know I shouldn't be here. I stare at my legs, they don't work. They don't feel, they don't hurt, they don't move. What's wrong with me?
I'm all the sudden terrified. I'm stuck, I'm in trouble. I have no sense of what will happen. I'm totally lost, my thoughts scattered. BANG....Oh no they're still there. I can't brethe anymore. I scream in my head, but I can't even hear my own terror. I just stare. i have no control. I can't even remeber if I ever did have control.
CRASH! The door flies open. A flash of the brightest sunlight ever. I can't see anymore. No color, no darkness, no shapes, no nothing, it is a void. This is what it came down to. Was there someone there. "Hello?" No response. i could still hear the humm oh my oscilating fan, but it grew more and more distant. I felt the sunshine warming my insides. That's when I left my mind. I wan't there, I was gone.
My eyes slowly unstuck themselves. A blurry haze of white posessed my sight. I lie on my plush grey carpet. i focus on my ceiling. i still can't move. I wonder what just happened. How long was Iaying on the floor. The sun wasn't shinig. My fan was still on. My thoughts weighed heavier on my mind now.